Writing…So many do it so few actually feel it. And how many do actually put their entire passion in their words? As a reader I can assure you that the passion of a writer is felt in his/her words.
I am one of those that love to write. My mind is full of ideas that I can write about, ideas that come so alive in my mind I can actually see the words flying around me. And then I come in front of the screen and nothing. The magic is gone. The words transform in these random thoughts that might not impress no-one. So why? Why do I block when I come in contact with the writer in me?
You see I’ve been doing this job that I more or less don’t like (hate 😀 ) for years now. Every now and then I open Google and start reading about freelancing. I spend hours going from an article to another, trying to understand how to become a better writer, how to overcome my fears and why not become a freelancer. You see, the perfect job in my mind involves words and books. Many words and books. Never ending words and books. And I truly believe that through words and books we can do so much, we can share so much, we can learn and we can teach, we can live, we can actually be happy. I feel overwhelmed with joy when I think of words and books. So why? Why do I find it so hard to actually find a job that involves words and books.
I know why. But I am somehow scared to admit it. It is because I am scared. Scared to write from my heart like nobody is reading. I am scared of being judged, scared that someone that knows me might read something that I write and judge me, scared that I might harm someone with my words, scared that my writing is not enough, scared that my words are not worth to be read. I am scared to let go and put my heart on the paper.
And so I thought a long time about it and I think that is enough..Enough of being scared and insecure. Enough of not living my dream because of fear. As I am writing this I have a browser opened with information about freelancing. I am so scared that I am not good enough, though I am the one that says all the time that there are things that can be learned. I might not become what I want today, tomorrow, maybe not even next year. But at least I will know that I tried, that I left behind (really not, it will always be present in my mind 🙂 ) the fear and that I took steps forward toward my only real dream: be a writer.
So write..Write from your heart like nobody is reading!