If you look at the title it seems like I just finished my entire TBR list of more than 400 books on Goodreads. 😜📚🥰 In reality I haven’t even reached half of the list and I would have probably never would because I was constantly adding to it. This ongoing growing list made me feel like I’m not reading fast enough.
It was like I was not a real bookworm. 🤷♀️😓🙄
All this situation made me feel anxious for some reason. Therefore I made the best decision that I could have make: I deleted every single book on my TBR list and with that the reading pressure dropped as well.
As a child I was a light reader. I enjoyed reading but I was not constantly with a book in my hands. My dad was that person. He had a huge library with most probably more than 400 books and he read them and re-read them several times. It made me dream that one day that library might be mine.
I became an adult and my desire for reading dropped considerably. For many years I haven’t even touched a book. All my father’s books were left in Romania, in boxes, when we all left the country. One day, one of my friends lent me a book. And when I sat to read it, it felt like coming home. My desire and my dream came back. And so I started to build my own library. I am far away from 400 physical books but it’s slowly getting there. 📚❤📖
These days, while reading under pressure, to finish a book that an author offered me for a review, I kinda felt that I’m not enjoying reading as much. It’s like I was doing it because I had to and the pleasure of jumping in the story was far gone. I was constantly checking my TBR list on Goodreads and I felt even more pressure to read all the books that I constantly added. 🤯
And then it hit me: I don’t want to read because I have to. I want to read because I want to. I want to enjoy those few hours with the book that I chose after checking all my bookshelf. And the decision was made: 0 books on my TBR list on Goodreads and I won’t buy any more new book until I finished all that I have, physical or e-book.
Right now I’m reading Quiet by Susan Cain and Five Feet Apart by Rachael Lippincott with Mikki Daughtry and Tobias Iaconis. I have to write a review for the last book that I finished, Cold Betrayal by A.J. McCarthy which (spoiler alert) is based in Quebec and I absolutely loved. 😊🥰
All this, and no stress at all. Because reading is my passion and I do it to enjoy myself and right now I’m just going to keep my pace without lists and timelines…🤷♀️😌
Thanks for reading! ❤